Door Open! How did you like the story about myself and the girl that I loved/The girl I loved do much and put her way high above/The rest of the hoes at the stop for the bus/That one girl I thought that I could trust but/I guess that for us it was never meant to be/You see, lust is a powerful chemical substance/That can cause a man to feel a way that he doesn’t/I wasn’t trying to do something like kill my beloved/Man I fucking flipped out I pulled that shit out/A .9 caliber pistol that I had found/In the hands of a dead man behind the Golden Coral/She was a femme fetal I was just a modest mouse/Trying to live in a house where I didn’t belong sleeping in the couch/And I had found, that any drug or alcohol could fill that hole/Nah man it was that very substance that caused me to lose my will to live and love/Behold though I’m not an activist trying to stop the madness and sadness/Nah man I was just a mad kid trying to find a place in the world that would have him/But apparently aint nobody got time for that shit God damn it/I forgot who I was and got wrapped up in who I’d become/I didn’t wanna change my ways taking one straight to the brain/Was one way I had found to help me get through the day/When seeing your face and hearing your voice wasn’t enough to make me feel ok/I was a slave to the ways of this modern society/All the rappers I ever listened to lied to me/You see it’s so hard to fit in when everyone talk shit to me/Looks down on me turn the whole crowd on me this wheel is turning me/Round and round all the way down now I’m hell bound/We approach a dead end there’s a crack in the ground my death was sound/Well it made a sound actually 2 “Boom, Boom” bullets into me and you/ Brains hit the cement see this is the outcome of everything I detest/See when I was a kid I would have never ever believed this/Would be my fate a shot in the head and a homicide derived from hate/Mommas crying as my body’s carried away in a wooden crate/She’s hoping that I see the heaven’s gate/But I’ll probably end up seeing hells flames/We all make mistakes but mine proved to be permanent/Enemy of the state my life has gone done the drain slipped through my fingertips/At least everyone will notice never not no know how/I was behind the school during Homecoming on the prowl/Trying to love this gal 11 at night up wide awake like an owl/Or a bat a fat son of a bitch with a gat in his back pants/Pocket a tick toking time bomb attached to a rocket waiting to be blasted off/And you were the comet that I was destined to hit/Crash into collide with tears in my eyes I apologize/
You pushed me straight to the edge I just wanted to get this over with/It’s your fault! We won’t get to be older/Grow old you making me a meal/I just told you how I really feel and that’s a door closed/

Door Open! Okay it’s back to me time for me to tell about my story/That you just heard not too long ago I hope you didn’t think it was boring/My story was one of emotion storing not wanting none of it/Sad, happy, mad, jealous, nervous nah man none of it/All that fucking shit push me back to things I aint wanna do/D-R-U,-G-S all that stuff I used to do/Yeah I puffed it, and blew back out it helps drown out the truth/
Makes me feel different and that’s why I meant it when I said it/That I was done for good I made a promise to you Lucy/My old friend who told me how she felt about what I was doing/You where the last straw after what you said I decided to take my mask off/But I still felt lost then I moved away and turned into Jack Frost/The only friends I ever had where gone you and Josh nowhere to be found gosh/I finally got cleansed and got a wash now the people I need the most/Are nowhere to be found y’all let me hit the ground/And break my leg y’all enjoy the sound of me being in pain/It’s insane but y’all don’t understand when everything is crumbling around you/
And then it’s this one girl who had found you and she leads you to believe she felt you/Swept you off your feet man it’s so crazy/Cuz you aint felt nothing like this around here lately /Man no lie this the type of girl that you would want to have your baby/She then acted like she aint wanna roll with me, there’s a gaping hole in me/
And I tried to continue life but my brain kept showing me/Visions of you and me alone together in the dark holding/Hand but in my heart I knew that there was never no chance/Nah man cuz I’m not the one with the bands nah man I’m the one with the Wal-Mart pants/Man I hate my life, I thought without drugs I would always be in the lights/Even after she said that she liked me, I knew she could never handle a dude like me/And the real sad part is that I still don’t think that she really like me/And the darker half of me took over and said that she could bite me/In the end there was no more fighting/The real feelings that I had bottled up inside of me/And I feel really bad cuz I really wanted to share your pain/You were just a Glad Rag Doll shoved around and played/With and I know you hate it when I tell your story like this/
And put you on blast and shit but the confidence you’re lacking it/So I got to act on it and take it upon myself/To tell the story that you’re too afraid to tell/It seems now that both our stories are cut short/Me because I really am no more/You because I can no longer write/Down in this diary about everyday life/That I also recorded in the hopes that you might/Listen to it despite you feelings because in the end that was my mission/And I’m really sad if you offended by all the things that I’ve mentioned/
That was never my intention I hope you know/I was just trying to get through/All the bumps in the road and that’s another door closed/

Door Open! Yo, I’d like to start my verse by saying that I was just playing/None of this really happened it’s all shit that I imagined/It was all stuff that I thought up in my head and then said/So let’s get this straight no one is dead/With a fatal gunshot wound into the headAnd nobody slit his wrist because he never got a kiss/And even if he did you shouldn’t wine about it like a little bitch/Ya dig? And quit asking cuz I won’t ever care if the mainstream goes me/If it don’t then imma still be telling my stories, Till I Collapse/And blow me if you don’t like my raps cuz how much work you put in/You don’t do shit! I work all day and all you do is stay in your room jerking/
Yourself off to videos of some damn girl twerking/Her fat ass off you know what fuck it keep hating/On what I’m making you’re gonna find me lurking circling/Your house and when you’re in the shower I’m gonna open the curtain/And shoot you in the knee cap so I know that for the rest of your life you’ll be hurting/And I know it sounds like I’m coming off angry/Well it’s cuz I am because everybody’s hating on me/
Ranking below people who couldn’t even rhyme show and slow/Man fuck that whack shit I’m gonna end up being a stow away/Cuz no one can look me in the face and say I’m gonna be great with a straight face/Punk ass bitch stay the fuck away from mw cuz I’m writing in haste/A diss to knock you straight off of the place that you claim/I’ll take a shit on your thorn and then I’ll go home/You Blazing homo with no skill or will/All that you got is the built and you really thinking that you real/And then there’s you the wanna be the trying to be/Hopsin do you really think people are feeling shit come on son/You, your flows dumb you suck ayyo you wanna step now huh!?/Ayyo let me calm down before I make an ass outta myself/But shit that’s just how I felt sorry I’ve had anger issues since the first time daddy beat me with a belt/And music is the only way I feel I could have dealt/With the anger building up because of the disses they pelt/Me with I need to sit down/
Take a drink of water and think of/What to talk about next to fill up these 12 bars/
Ok well first off I would like to say that anything to do with love I really felt/My story and that are the only things that are real/And you know how the story goes for a ghost/A lachrymose the side I’ve been trying to show/Since the first time I started to flow/Because most had no idea I was like this on my own/Yeah when I’m by myself my emotions are blown/Way out of proportion I guess that I just wanted you to know/Who I really am not much of a man/Whenever it started to get messy I ran/So this one goes out to someone I really hope is my fan/Yeah you a girl named Drew, another door closed whew/